No Dreams

sometimes, i really hate myself for being me,
no dreams, motivations, and passion in life,
compare no different to those people who are lost,
still searching high and low for the bright dream light

having a heart no bigger than a mouse,
always too afraid to take a big steps,
afraid of this fast moving outside world,
afraid of falling from the mistakes i make

all i know what to do,
just to hide inside this old shell,
too afraid the risk to take,
this is why i achieve nothing

dear sky

i am now sitting at my work desk,
staring outside the gloomy sky,
it feels like the sky is going to cry,
these days it had been crying a lot,
but it just won't cry this time, its holding back,
it just stay as gloomy as it can,
dear sky, are you having the same feeling as i do?
are you trying to be strong this time?

paper, notes, work, sketches, stationary,
scattered all over my desk,
here am i, trying to hold on to my pencil,
ready to sketch something out,
but nothing came up,
just the word 'loneliness' in my mind

i don't know what has come into my mind,
was i am afraid of the dark?
or was i am afraid of saying goodbye?

Lazy Blogger

so many things yet to say, but lazy to write,
i got so many stories wanna tell, but
LAZY or BUSY, apala ni lah,
ish ish, i wonder why am i so lazy to blog,
shame shame, malu malu,
i always can't never maintain this blog lah,
must be my blog feng sui not good, haha

Sem break finally

i am herreeeeeeeeee!!
so, what does that mean to you?
yes yes, finally my sem break is here!!
i am going to throw away all my fucking work,
and never wanna see them again,
and i don't fucking care about on art or design,
fuck that no life tiring course, imma gonna live my life now,
so what if my 4 clients from each subject hates my idea,
ask them fuck off, they're blind, especially my lecturers too,
you people sucks! :D

miserable

To be honest, I'm really tired on what am i doing, it seems i had lose interest and passion in arts & design ady, i'm feeling really miserable and no longer happy drawing & designing like i used to, every time it's always too many assignments to rush and too little time to finish, who's problem? It's me or TOA's problem? I want to produce nice work, but it seems TOA stopped me, 'you' are always talking about time and money only! What about the passion? So many people are quiting 'you' because 'you' only just want quantity and not quality! Shame on you TOA! We are not wonder people! F it! ):

Sem break ended

my sem break ended already,

i am back on my busy life again,

it is just only the beginning of the week,

i am dying half way already,

guess this blog is gonna die any time,

i will see if i got any free time to blog,

or if i should say to my blog -

"bye bye blog and see you next sem break"

short post

actually i wanted to blog on many stuffs,

but lately i am kinda occupied doing on others,

partly the reason was my sem break is gonna finish,

so i have to really enjoy kau kau first,

then blog later lah, sorry, hahaha

i lately went to melacca,

and did nice shopping,

i was planing to blog about it just now,

somehow i changed my mind,

as you all know mother's day is coming soon right?

i had planed to do something for my mama,

she doesn't like gifts, so i had to make it special,

so i am saving time for blogging,

i going to use my art skills to make a nice family portrait instead,

gonna edit the photo kau kau, then frame it nicely,

hope i don't fail lah (what? i am doubting myself?)

don't forget to make your mama happy ya,

not just on mother's day only, EVERYDAY,

ok ok, end of post :D