Jealousy

I don't understand. I don't understand why should I feel this way. Jealousy or envy is the most stupid emotion that people ever have. I don't know why God even bother to inserted this stupid emotion into us humans. I hate this feeling a lot. Take it away. It cause nothing but just misery. It leads you into darkness. It makes you feel like crying and mad at the same time every single moment. It make you yourself hurt a lot and it sometimes make people do stupid things such as hurting others. What a silly emotion.. 

Escape

Finally, my semester break is finally here. I know I suppose to feel happy or excited about it. But, I feel something is missing. Somehow this semester break is a painful one where I need to say good bye to everyone. I hate saying good bye. Screw the attachment that I had developed in these few months. 

*****

During this semester break, I wish I could escape to a place where there is nobody. If I have wings, I'll fly away, fly away from here. And I'll leave, leave everything behind. Just me alone at a place that I always dream of going to. A place where I can listen to the sound of the waves. A place where I can finally rest my mind. And please wash away my emotions and feelings. So I do not need to feel these stupid feelings anymore.