Money not enough

phew, i just got back a day trip from kl,

i really hate that place, it's so scary,

the people,

environment,

traffic,

shops,

eeeee, all very scary!

i will never go down to kl unless i wanted to,

the purpose for today is to go look for a nice price for my DSLR,

ok ok,

to make it clear,

i am not into DSLR, i am force to have it,

here's the story, blah blah blah,

starting by next sem, i going to have photography class,

everyone is require to own a DSLR,

seriously WTF

can i just use my phone camera or my pink digital camera instead?

DSLR banyak expensive lah,

can buy iphone ady

at first i wanted to buy the cheapest one,

but my stupid friend keep on telling me no use,

go attack me with lecturer's preference,

later buy not what he wants seriously can go bang wall,

say must go buy the Canon 550D or Nikon 90D,

because everyone is buying it,

which both at least cost around RM3,000++,

SIAO!

i don't want DSLR! i don't want DSLR!

i want lomo camera! i want lomo camera!

i willing to save money to buy lomo cameras and the films lah,

how can i afford a DSLR which i am not interested in,

lomography is so pretty...

pretty pretty 

if you don't know what is lomo camera is, 

fast fast go google it!

aiyah, i so dilemma now,

i even have to spend money on my wacom tablet for my next sem,

if you also don't know what is wacom tablet, google it too,

cost me a bomb also

I WANT LOMO CAMERA!

so tell me tell me,

should i buy the expensive or the cheaper DSLR?

i don't know what if i start holding the DSLR,

i will get attached by it,

i will blame myself so much till can even kill myself,

for not buying a nice one in the 1st place,

but who knows i hate DSLR that much at that time,

and decide not to touch it anymore after my photography lessons are over

I WANT LOMO CAMERA!

if i buy cheap one,

i will not reach my lecturer's requirement,

equals i had bought something totally useless

or maybe i should not care about it,

all DSLR are the same right? RIGHT?

snap snap, ok, there you go, you have your nice photos 

I WANT LOMO CAMERA!

my dad really beh syok already,

for spending so much stuff on my art course,

aaaahhhhhhhh!!

i need money!!

DEAR GOD!!!! 

please rain money now!!!!!

nah, show you some lomography that i found from flickr,

all photos taken by slimmer jimmer

and etc and etc,

too many to show,

fascinating photography eh?

New header for me blog!

come on come on, tell me it's pretty?

blah, if you're still that blur that you don't know what am i crapping,

i am talking about the new header that i just did for my blog,

now, tell me it's pretty?

i gonna whoosh your head if you don't

i currently having my sem break, 

so yes, i am very free now, 

and yes,  i can finally bring my blog back to life 

yay, alive again

to be honest, i am bored!

i still haven't get use to be so that free,

i mean NO assignments anymore, 

back then, my everyday life is just doing assignments,

i miss doing assignments,

shit, slap me

shame on me!

now, i am just blank 

blank

blank

blank

blank

i going to find something to do now,

bye bye

Stay strong

I don't know..

somehow I am feeling a bit sad or down..

I begin to slowly to isolate myself from other people,

wanna escape to a far far away place from here..

If I could only go back time,

I wanna change and fix everything that I just left it there before..

I thought this feelings would just go by after quite some time,

but I was wrong..

it came back and haunt me again..

NO! NO! NO!

I must stay strong!

*knocks head*

Happy Happy to all

Happy Chinese Meow Meow Rawr Rawr New Year to all!

(ang pau gimme gimme!)

and

Happy Valentine Day to all my friends who are coupled!

(valentine gift gimme gimmei!)

and

Happy Friendship Day to my friends!

(friendship forever!)

and

Happy Single Awareness Day to all my single friends!

(fast fast find someone! :p)

Hope all you guys are having a great time! Yay! (:

REJECT?!

MUGEN? YISHU?

Title: Yishu, 艺术

Concept: suitable for art & design center

Type: logo design

Status: 1st design + Redo work

REJECT REJECT & REJECT!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

What is this f**cking lecturer thinking?

I kept on thinking and doing the ideas during day and night,

no sleeping, no resting, even while sleeping also can say doing already,

then less than a minute REJECT REJECT REJECT!

Please lah, at least take time to look properly and show me some appreciation,

I've been working like shit!

still remember about the MUGEN design in my last post?

I redo it and I only got accepted 1,

but I still need make changes,

seriously, I am really having phobia having her class already.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

THESE STRESSES just keep coming,

I JUST LOVE MY LIFE!! 

:)

Arts is not useless, ok?

Grrrr! I am so so so MAD!

being smart is everything meh?

smart + arrogant = idiot bastard

The person I am referring is not a friend or relative,

it's my f***cking brother!

as you all already know, my brother is a genius,

that's because he likes to 'know everything' and likes studying.

I am sorry I am not smart in family,

I am sorry I was born to do arts,

so that's why,

I don't mind my parents to pamper him more than me,

I don't mind my daddy thinks he is more important than me,

I dont mind my daddy treats him better than me,

I don't mind my daddy talks about him more than me,

because,

He is my daddy's only hope left,

he is my daddy's expectations,

he is my daddy's dream,

he is my daddy's smart genius boy.

It's not like I want to complain that he is smarter than me,

he is only smarter than me in academics, not art,

but what to do? 

everyone's mind is always thinking academics are much important than arts,

arts is useless and no future? 

so what's the point being smart in arts?

what's the point if I get many As in my art subject?

it's useless, nobody cares...

Just because he is a genius, does that mean he can insult me?

yes, I know he is very smart and got straight As in his AS exam,

yes, I am proud like my parents are,

so what?

this doesn't means you still can insult me...

Today, he boost on how smart he is,

saying he beat the smartest girl in Taylor's in Thinking Skills,

saying how easy is Thinking Skills, and how stupid that she can't score,

then he asked me about my result, I didn't answer him,

but he already knew, he went through my results, yes, I got an E.

He said loudly in front of my parents, 

"I know you got E! You don't need tell me! I went and check! Why you got E one? Thinking Skills so easy and you also don't know how to do? Aih."

i went speechless, my parent's faces went black, although they had already known about it,

then, my brother added on,

"What's your Thinking Skills break down? Aiyuh, don't need say sure E and E lah."

i still kept quiet.. I got an E doesn't mean my break down will be E and E lah pls...

I went to change topic and asked my mommy something,

talking about people who stay near those electric tower,

i was wondering will it affect the people's health there,

the radioactive or electric force field would may some how cause cancer,

then my brother interrupt, 

"Heh. You very funny hor? You got learn physic a not? If don't have don't simply say and then keep quiet (shut up?) lah you."

then he tries to explain it that it doesn't affect the people with explaining with his f**cking scientific theories,

in short,

F**CKING BULLSHITS!

IF I BLODDY ASK HIM TO PICK UP THAT PENCIL AND DRAW 1 FREAKING STRAIGHT LINE, CAN HE DO THAT A NOT HUH HUH HUH HUH HUH?!

This isn't the 1st time he ever insult me,

I just give him face all along,

cause my daddy was there,

but I just can't stand it anymore...

Sometimes when I am drawing or doing arts,

arts is sometimes not easy thing to do,

so I would become frustrated,

then my brother was there,

"Cheh! Got so hard meh? Study arts got use meh? You all very 爽 lah, just draw draw and draw only. So easy task. You see me, I study further math and science leh! Compare to mine, yours is nothing. So, don't complain so much lah."

GGrrr.. I just sit there being speechless..

because.. my daddy also thinks the same way..

so I told my self, I have no rights to fight back..

cause he is a genius and my daddy's only hope..

So, being smart is everything meh?

being so that arrogant,

it's worthless.

I freaking don't understand why people always think arts is useless! 

all your hp, computers, gadgets will be just boring board chips!!

no avatar, animations or disney or cartoon or movie will ever exist!

who does all this stuff for you all!!

if there's no arts, this world is nothing!!

so STOP SAYING ARTS IS USELESS YOU #$%&'()0('&%$ PEOPLE!!!

life would not be interesting without arts!

can't those people think the positiveness of arts existence??

Aih, it's useless,

how can I convince everyone about this,

I can't even convince my daddy.

Ok ok, enough,

I just shut up and draw!

MUGEN upset

Aiyuh.. banyak upset leh..

upset 

upset

upset

not enough to show you how upset am i?

designed 30 + designs for hours, rejected within less than a minute,

not even a minute?! 

bloody hell...

All friends kena rejected also,

ALL REJECTED!!

haha, banyak sad case.

I wonder if she did really see the designs properly or not,

because?

When our designs were place in front of her, she took less a minute to see and said,

"NO NO NO NO?"

"I don't want this?"

"You all never do research?" ( how we know what you want?)

ALL KENA.

Aiyah, she is like that - do not explain what she wants properly,

her explanations always got 'lubang',

next day, she sure use the 'lubang' back to kill us all as if how we know what she wants,

explain earlier lah miss, don't waste my precious time.

"What is it excatly what we should do again?", we asked.

"Do anything you want.", she answered.

"HAR?"

ok ok, do anything we want.. doing now.. hmm.. showing..

as usual, next day, kena kau kau because we actually didn't reach her requirement.

Wasted my time to design nicely,

raw raw raw, screw it?

i got so many other assignments to finish lah!

especially the human sketches are killing me.

Never mind bah, I just throw these designs in my portfolio as freelance work lah,

maybe someone else will appreciate it? who knows?

you guys be my lecturer bah.

be nice? :p

Title: MUGEN, 無限

Concept: unlimited, free style, no boundaries 

Type: logo design