Arts is not useless, ok?

Grrrr! I am so so so MAD!

being smart is everything meh?

smart + arrogant = idiot bastard

The person I am referring is not a friend or relative,

it's my f***cking brother!

as you all already know, my brother is a genius,

that's because he likes to 'know everything' and likes studying.

I am sorry I am not smart in family,

I am sorry I was born to do arts,

so that's why,

I don't mind my parents to pamper him more than me,

I don't mind my daddy thinks he is more important than me,

I dont mind my daddy treats him better than me,

I don't mind my daddy talks about him more than me,

because,

He is my daddy's only hope left,

he is my daddy's expectations,

he is my daddy's dream,

he is my daddy's smart genius boy.

It's not like I want to complain that he is smarter than me,

he is only smarter than me in academics, not art,

but what to do? 

everyone's mind is always thinking academics are much important than arts,

arts is useless and no future? 

so what's the point being smart in arts?

what's the point if I get many As in my art subject?

it's useless, nobody cares...

Just because he is a genius, does that mean he can insult me?

yes, I know he is very smart and got straight As in his AS exam,

yes, I am proud like my parents are,

so what?

this doesn't means you still can insult me...

Today, he boost on how smart he is,

saying he beat the smartest girl in Taylor's in Thinking Skills,

saying how easy is Thinking Skills, and how stupid that she can't score,

then he asked me about my result, I didn't answer him,

but he already knew, he went through my results, yes, I got an E.

He said loudly in front of my parents, 

"I know you got E! You don't need tell me! I went and check! Why you got E one? Thinking Skills so easy and you also don't know how to do? Aih."

i went speechless, my parent's faces went black, although they had already known about it,

then, my brother added on,

"What's your Thinking Skills break down? Aiyuh, don't need say sure E and E lah."

i still kept quiet.. I got an E doesn't mean my break down will be E and E lah pls...

I went to change topic and asked my mommy something,

talking about people who stay near those electric tower,

i was wondering will it affect the people's health there,

the radioactive or electric force field would may some how cause cancer,

then my brother interrupt, 

"Heh. You very funny hor? You got learn physic a not? If don't have don't simply say and then keep quiet (shut up?) lah you."

then he tries to explain it that it doesn't affect the people with explaining with his f**cking scientific theories,

in short,

F**CKING BULLSHITS!

IF I BLODDY ASK HIM TO PICK UP THAT PENCIL AND DRAW 1 FREAKING STRAIGHT LINE, CAN HE DO THAT A NOT HUH HUH HUH HUH HUH?!

This isn't the 1st time he ever insult me,

I just give him face all along,

cause my daddy was there,

but I just can't stand it anymore...

Sometimes when I am drawing or doing arts,

arts is sometimes not easy thing to do,

so I would become frustrated,

then my brother was there,

"Cheh! Got so hard meh? Study arts got use meh? You all very 爽 lah, just draw draw and draw only. So easy task. You see me, I study further math and science leh! Compare to mine, yours is nothing. So, don't complain so much lah."

GGrrr.. I just sit there being speechless..

because.. my daddy also thinks the same way..

so I told my self, I have no rights to fight back..

cause he is a genius and my daddy's only hope..

So, being smart is everything meh?

being so that arrogant,

it's worthless.

I freaking don't understand why people always think arts is useless! 

all your hp, computers, gadgets will be just boring board chips!!

no avatar, animations or disney or cartoon or movie will ever exist!

who does all this stuff for you all!!

if there's no arts, this world is nothing!!

so STOP SAYING ARTS IS USELESS YOU #$%&'()0('&%$ PEOPLE!!!

life would not be interesting without arts!

can't those people think the positiveness of arts existence??

Aih, it's useless,

how can I convince everyone about this,

I can't even convince my daddy.

Ok ok, enough,

I just shut up and draw!

MUGEN upset

Aiyuh.. banyak upset leh..

upset 

upset

upset

not enough to show you how upset am i?

designed 30 + designs for hours, rejected within less than a minute,

not even a minute?! 

bloody hell...

All friends kena rejected also,

ALL REJECTED!!

haha, banyak sad case.

I wonder if she did really see the designs properly or not,

because?

When our designs were place in front of her, she took less a minute to see and said,

"NO NO NO NO?"

"I don't want this?"

"You all never do research?" ( how we know what you want?)

ALL KENA.

Aiyah, she is like that - do not explain what she wants properly,

her explanations always got 'lubang',

next day, she sure use the 'lubang' back to kill us all as if how we know what she wants,

explain earlier lah miss, don't waste my precious time.

"What is it excatly what we should do again?", we asked.

"Do anything you want.", she answered.

"HAR?"

ok ok, do anything we want.. doing now.. hmm.. showing..

as usual, next day, kena kau kau because we actually didn't reach her requirement.

Wasted my time to design nicely,

raw raw raw, screw it?

i got so many other assignments to finish lah!

especially the human sketches are killing me.

Never mind bah, I just throw these designs in my portfolio as freelance work lah,

maybe someone else will appreciate it? who knows?

you guys be my lecturer bah.

be nice? :p

Title: MUGEN, 無限

Concept: unlimited, free style, no boundaries 

Type: logo design

Help, wanted!

Dear friends, I need your help! AHHH! 1 of my design course requires me to find people to vote on the names that we created ourselves which you think is easy to remember and very suitable for an Art & Design Center name. All these names were originally created by all my classmates and I. You can vote as many names as you want, no limit. Your cooperation is greatly appreciated! Thank you! Muacks! (:

Here are the name-list:

1) Nature Art & Design

2) Yishu

3) TRART

4) Artsign

5) Marque

6) Amplifique

7) Bubblepro

8) Dynace

9) Twi-Art

10) Appletree

11) Millenium

12) Art Heaven

13) MixNPaint

14) Crayon

15) Go Art

16) Polka-Dots

17) I Come

18) ClipArt

19) Grafi

20) Art Connect

21) FlyFree

22) Flex-stable

23) Draw It Out

24) Bigkick

25) Audiotrack

26) Jidea

27) Yo, Art!

28) I SEE

29) Sponge

30) Artfarm

31) Feelflow

32) PopINArt

33) I-Draw

Eating PARADISE

Yesterday I was back from Penang. I went to Penang was because to attend my cousin's wedding dinner. What to say about it, the food taste so-so and I was freaking bored during the dinner because I got nobody to talk to. (Note: I am like the 2nd youngest cousin in my dad's side whole family and all my cousins are all age above 30.) So you should likely understand why am I really bored during the dinner. It's always been like that. No conversation to talk about. Just I stare you, you stare me; I shy shy, you shy shy; I eat eat, you eat eat. Hmmph, generation gap.

Well, overall I really enjoy the trip in Penang. What me and my family did was eat sleep eat sleep during Penang. GGAAHH!! EATING!!! It's like I've been eating for 24 hours! We ordered Char Kueh Teow, Prawn Mee, Laksa, Popiah, Cendol, Rojak, Lobak  and many many in each every of our meal. We had been eating none stop! Don't forget the ice-cream too! Yum yum.. I still can taste their Char Kueh Teow.. Tasty.. AHHH! WHY ISN'T THERE A NICE CHAR KUEH TEOW HERE IN PJ! *smack head*

Surprisingly, my aunt brought us to try the real authentic Penang food. Not those that will charge you expensively and taste as terrible that you normally could get here. Haha. No offense, sorry for insulting PJ's food. If you're planing on going to Penang, you must go and have lunch at the Batu Lanchang food court. Their food is so cheap and tasty! RM2.50 for the food and RM0.70 for most drinks! AHHH! PARADISE!! *drooling* Then, for dinner, I went to thr restaurant called Coconut Palm. New place. Their food is so darn nice. No kidding. I still miss their food. *drooling*

Talking about eating. There's a consequences I need to face. I gained weight. Haha. I hardly can fit most of my pants now. Haha. My mom got shocked when I showed her I can't fit in my pants and the spare tyre was amazing. Haha. Then my dad told me he could not imagine if they left me in Penang for 1 week. Oh! SOB SOB.

Cruise trip

Tomorrow will be the day where I am going for a holiday cruise on the Royal Caribbean ship with my TOA friends for 6 days and 5 nights. Sadly, there will be only 4 of us going which is thanks to the strict rules that the ship imposed on. To have 1 room, you must have at least 1 person must be 21 years old or above. So far, we got 1 above 21 years old only. I hope nothing goes wrong. I just can't help myself thinking there may be something bad happening to me since suddenly lately all the bad stuffs just love to find me. I am afraid I won't get to really enjoy myself. Damn, I am thinking negatively again.. *knock my head* Shoo shoo, go away bad stuffs!

This cruise will be landing on 3 places if I am not mistaken, Penang, Phuket and Singapore. You know what, I am now kind of regret on going to this cruise. It is because it is so expensive. That day when I agreed to this trip is because I was not thinking rational due to the problems I am facing. I was thinking that I can take this opportunity to leave everything behind for awhile and take a deep breath. So, ended up I agreed going without thinking twice. But, some of my friends said to me that I still deserve it to go refresh myself and should go have fun. I really want to use this chance to make myself to start breathing again.. I had been suffocating for too long.. I want all of them to leave me alone.. Well, hope everything is going to be ok and I get to enjoy myself to the fullest. *knock my head* Stop worrying. I will!

Because,

 I really love the sea so much... 

So do you right..? 

Keep holding on

朋友們，我已沒事了

雖然在這几天里面我的心情好差

很容易生氣，很愛哭，對小事很敏感，也很容易受傷

因為最近太多事情發生

我一直在那邊忍受

一直假裝

一直當沒事發生

一直在里面受傷

其實，我累了。。

但，

我相信有一天，我對自己說

會過的。。

不用但心，我會好好的

還有還有，

謝謝你們的關心

對不起還讓你們擔心

其實，

我看了你們的 comments

還有一些有在 msn 和 sms 來安慰我

讓我知道我有那麼多好的朋友還那麼關心我

真的真的很開心

謝謝。。

我愛死你們了！

哈哈

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P/S：對不起，我知道我寫華語很差。但我很努力在再學我的華語。我現在已忘了很多要怎麼會讀和寫用華語了。 我當時很討厭學華語，因為我覺得太複雜。現在很後悔沒把我的華語好好的學， 所以我現在要把這個好機會再學好它。請你們多多指教喔！

悲傷的結束

我好痛苦。。好難受。。好難呼吸。。 好想哭。。 好想死。。

夠了。。 我的心受不了。。

我已不知道要這麼了。。

為什麼會是因為他？

我的心壞了？掉了？

這是一個愛情故事嗎？或這只是一場梦？

到最後要結束了，

他。。對我說：

“錯的時間遇上對的人”

天上的您啊，哪是對嗎？哪是都是您所有讓您安排出來的，不是嗎？

是您安排我們一起相遇嗎？

是您安排我們有這樣的感情嗎？

哪，您為什麼到最後要安排這樣的結束？

您要我們要掉多少淚才會讓您滿意？

難到是您一時誤了。。

或者，

難到這個故事已早就給您安排有這個悲傷的結束了。。

風，

只有您能幫這個故事好好的把它結束了

請您把這個不該在這里的感情帶走好嗎？

把我和他的事忘掉好嗎？

再見。。